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16 Jan 2011

My STUPID feelin

HI!!
truely,i dont have any idea to write-- bcause that i used MY STUPID FEELIN as my title--
dunno why,i feel so empty rite now,i dunno what must i do clearly.im tired,sometime,i just like wanna give up,but,i just cant do that,i cant be selfish rite??
ever someday,i really,really,really wanna go home,i cant handle my feelin,but i cant cry,or i wont to cry,then i thought if i dont have any reason to come home,my place is here,i was born to be here,i found many things here that can be my reason to stay..yeahh.then i try to struggle again,and i just thought my home sweet home will be waiting for me everysecond..

now,i finished my exam,and still stay here,just can see my friends go to theirs home,one by one,,can u imagine what i feel??yeahh..i wanna go home too,i miss my town,my family,my friends,i miss many things there,but,i cant go home:( i'll stay,because i choosed this way,my own way..
sometime,i need someone too bad to share how much i miss my family,my home,and my old life,but,,im too arrogant to recognize my feelin,im just wont to cry in front off them..
so,rite now,i just can put my feelin here and hope someone will understand my complicated feelin..
see ya..

4 Jan 2011

ANOTHER NEW YEAR..

Hi there!!-everyone who doesnt have any job else to keep follow my blog- hahahha...is there anyone??--

well,i just wanna say HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!more joyful,cheerful,and happiness than before..:)
this year,i think,i had take a big step with choosed to continue my study in Yogyakarta,yeahh so hard to leaving myfamily,mystupidcrazy friends,and my stories there..but,i must to think my future,and i must to change my life..
here,i got much experience,i got much friend,i got new knowledge,and..i got new fvckin love--..
im happy here,but sometime,i miss my old life so badd like im goin crazyy at the moment--
ah ya,i wanna talk about mynew friends..until now,i think,no one cant change mytinny as mybestfriend,i found another bestfriend here,but them cant understand what i mean with just see myeyes OR NOT YET,hehehe..
oke,i will introduce mybestfriends here..-ckckckc- from..
.Yanti-she's mybestfriend when im in the fvckin CNDT boardin house,she's funny i think,kindda oldstyle:P,girly,religious,patience,and a lil bit unadorned^^v so,i always fooled her,hehehhe...so cruel i am,,yes,of course:D
.k'Deya-she's mybestcrazysister when im in the fvckin CNDT too,she's so brilliant i think,kindda childish^^v,fashionista,girly-of course-,photogenic,so..she always be my object to practiced my skill in photography:P and she is so creative woman:)
.Lia-she's mybestie who i found in UPN,i cant say much yet about her,with clearly i know if she is faith and the bad she is so stubborn-- but,at least im so comfort to tell about everything with her,and i hope,she'll be my bestfriend until i leave this place -AMEEN!!!-
.Ayu-same like Lia,i found her in UPN too,she's my classmate,my friend to doin or try sumthing "crazy" not too different with Lia she's kindda stubborn,and adopts "LIKE I CARE" with other problems,hahahha...and im also comfort with her..

well,i think only them that can make me feel ALIVE here,yeahhh,many others had been participants,but,they're cant make im comfort yet to tell all about myself:)
soooo..in the NEW YEAR i just hope the best life for us,and we can get what our want,we can colouring our life with all of colour in this world,and hope ALLAH will always with us,and blessed us :) AMENN!

well,the Last, once again HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!
thanks to 2010 and welcome 2011 :)

-jha^^