My STUPID feelin

HI!!
truely,i dont have any idea to write-- bcause that i used MY STUPID FEELIN as my title--
dunno why,i feel so empty rite now,i dunno what must i do clearly.im tired,sometime,i just like wanna give up,but,i just cant do that,i cant be selfish rite??
ever someday,i really,really,really wanna go home,i cant handle my feelin,but i cant cry,or i wont to cry,then i thought if i dont have any reason to come home,my place is here,i was born to be here,i found many things here that can be my reason to stay..yeahh.then i try to struggle again,and i just thought my home sweet home will be waiting for me everysecond..

now,i finished my exam,and still stay here,just can see my friends go to theirs home,one by one,,can u imagine what i feel??yeahh..i wanna go home too,i miss my town,my family,my friends,i miss many things there,but,i cant go home:( i'll stay,because i choosed this way,my own way..
sometime,i need someone too bad to share how much i miss my family,my home,and my old life,but,,im too arrogant to recognize my feelin,im just wont to cry in front off them..
so,rite now,i just can put my feelin here and hope someone will understand my complicated feelin..

see ya..